To all the stuff I loved before. It’s not your fault that you didn’t complete me or make me whole. It’s not your fault that I lost interest and discarded you in search of something newer. You’re just stuff – you didn’t decide to come into my life and clutter it up. I made that decision all on my own. I am ready to take ownership of that. It was time for me to be true to myself. I’m sorry that my new life didn’t include you. But I needed to say goodbye.
To all of the clothes I no longer own. It’s not your fault you didn’t fit anymore. It’s not your fault you couldn’t make me like myself. You can’t portray an image of myself to the world that just isn’t true. You’re just clothes, not a magician. I wish I could have kept you. I wish I could have found more uses for you. It’s not your fault I stopped going dancing on weekends. I traded my heels in for Blundstones. I left that part of my life behind. I traded in cute party dresses for yoga pants. Too many yoga pants, I would later discover. It was time for me to be true to myself.
To all the beauty products I let go of. I’m sorry I was never the beauty guru you wanted me to be. I just could never get the hang of eyeliner. Also, sorry eyes, for poking you during this process. It’s not your fault you couldn’t transform me into the cool girl who always had her hair and makeup done just so. That’s not me. I’m always going to be the person who considers a full-face of makeup to be a little bit of foundation and mascara. That’s who I am. It was time for me to be true to myself.
To all the books that I found new homes for. It’s not for lack of amazing story-telling that I donated you to local library’s or friends. You’re an amazing work of art. I’ll treasure the time we spent together forever. You took me around the world and to made up lands where my imagination was allowed to run wild. You taught me new things about the world we live in. You taught me new things about myself. You made me laugh. You made me cry. I’m sorry I could never re-read you. I hope you’re enjoying your new homes.
To all of the relationships I left behind. I’ve never been good at maintaining connections. That’s on me. It’s not because I didn’t value your friendship or partnership. It’s just because time moves on. People move on. Never forget how awesome you are. Just because you’re not part of my life anymore doesn’t mean our time together wasn’t special. Saying goodbye was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. But it was the right thing to do.
To the old me from before. You’ve got this. You’re going to make changes and compromises and sacrifices you didn’t know you would be capable of. It’s going to be worth it. You’re being too hard on yourself. Everything is going to work out. It always has. You’ll look back on this time and realize how just how much you’ve accomplished. Be proud of yourself. You’re stronger than you can imagine. Give yourself some grace and be kind. Especially on tough days.
I’m grateful for everything you have given me.
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